Blog.Closed. Indefinitely.
Closed. For. Repairs.
Nursing. Insecurities.
Licking. Scars.
Fixing. Teetering. Hinges. Of. Sanity.
Clutching. Straws. Of. Hope.
(She sees the words like raindrops falling on the windshield of the mind, forming, and then being wiped out, a pattern that is the DNA of all her relationships - no clean slates, just his-story repeating itself. )
(She wishes to thank the few fellow travellers who docked at her station and sometimes sipped coffee while she had hers cold and commented on this and that. She wants them to continue on their path to find the elusive nirvana.)
Inconvenience. Regretted.
(She's delusional, thinking that the peddling of her wares helped create a need. She's always loved to play grandstanding. Sigh!)
Closed. Definitely. Indefinitely.
Nursing. Insecurities.
Licking. Scars.
Fixing. Teetering. Hinges. Of. Sanity.
Clutching. Straws. Of. Hope.
(She sees the words like raindrops falling on the windshield of the mind, forming, and then being wiped out, a pattern that is the DNA of all her relationships - no clean slates, just his-story repeating itself. )
(She wishes to thank the few fellow travellers who docked at her station and sometimes sipped coffee while she had hers cold and commented on this and that. She wants them to continue on their path to find the elusive nirvana.)
Inconvenience. Regretted.
(She's delusional, thinking that the peddling of her wares helped create a need. She's always loved to play grandstanding. Sigh!)
Closed. Definitely. Indefinitely.
posted by Livin @ 6/08/2006 01:51:00 PM
14 Comments:
At 3:19 PM ,
Psyche said...
Hey!! You cant just leave. Common now.. heartbreak happens to the best of us.
This is where you can pour out all your sorrows, pain, laughter and chillar observations. Why why why would you want to stop that!!!???
I am increasingly finding people like us...disillusioned in love. Men, like (my) Jar and your's whoever, who are all ok with dating shating shit, but want nothing more.
The last time jar and me got all cozy was mostly his doing. I think I should have insisted more that we stop, cos the morning after he dropped me to office, HE CUT all communication for an entire day. I mean, the balls of that man!! He dare cut me after all that HE did the night before. I mean, anyone will let you how all important that MORNING AFTER is. Its when all your insecurities come hammering down on you.. all your hopes are looking hungryily out. And to NOT TALK is the single worst thing guys can do. And thats what they all do!!
Henceforth I blocked him on google talk, ignored him when we met and gave him as much as a finger as I could with a broken heart.
Dont know what causing all this.. But I can tell you one thing for sure babe.. YOU AINT ALONE IN THIS.
Now get that bony arse back here OK????
At 12:38 AM ,
Livin said...
Hey psyche
Thanks a ton for the support. I appreciate it. And strangely enough I'm not suffering from heartbreak yet, but I know am moving towards it. Because I'm treading the path that I've tread before and it's a familiar pattern.
The disillusionment is because however nice a guy seems, they all want one thing only. And that kinda kills me (I think it'd kill most women). All one really wants is to not hurt, and be loved for who you are right? Is that too much to ask? I don't know. I give up.
And oh yeah, I have anything but a bony ass! Ha ha.
Since you're in the same city, should meet up for coffee sometime and vent some spleen...:)
Hugs to you too lady. Thanks a mil again.(Don't know if I'm coming back though - guess I need a sabbatical).
At 8:25 PM ,
pruvaloo said...
Sometimes guys don't talk not because they have nothing to say, but because they don't know how to say it. Not always. But sometimes.
At 12:01 AM ,
AltFil said...
"They all want one thing only", you say. Hmm...heard a wise person say once - never paint the world with the same brush...
It all depends on the reasons one gets into a relationship. Anyway, pity that you're stopping...hope it works out for you.
At 11:00 AM ,
Livin said...
//pruvaloo
Guess you're right. No comments on that really.
//altfil
Have already left a comment on your post. Thanks for the support.
Right now life's hazy. Right now life's also beautifully hazy. Right now there's fear what tomorrow will bring. Right now tomorrow's far away.
But then tomorrow will come.
At 12:04 PM ,
Psyche said...
Lets met woman!!
Never met anyone from the blogsphere before!!
contact info...hmmm...now, what would be the way of doing that, without giving up my id to the wide world??
I'm too paranoid abt putting up contact info here :((..
???
At 10:43 AM ,
Livin said...
Let's discuss it over chat on yahoo. Add me...and yes, ditto about the paranoia!My id? Ummm...well it's the same as the blog title...with a double the at India. If you can figure that out, cool...:) Sounds almost like TDVC He he he!
At 1:57 PM ,
Irfan said...
Come back R. You got to.
At 4:31 AM ,
velvetgunther said...
Hey, you can't just go like this, just because of some jerk...
At 4:43 PM ,
nowheregirl said...
hey dont give up hope and dont stop writing... from what you said this guy is not worth it... breaking the pattern is in your hand...
At 10:55 PM ,
Livin said...
//nowhere girl
Didn't really say anything about 'not being worth it'. And thank you for the support.
Read your post. Seemed like it was talking to me...:) nice.
At 12:22 AM ,
± said...
such severe reactions for people who are not worth it?
not worth it!
and yeah... tried to decipher your yahoo id.
will not try again...
managed to reach some weirdos....
cheers
At 8:31 PM ,
Livin said...
//Harjee
Thanks for stopping by my blog. Didn't know when I wrote this blog that I'd get the support that I've got so far. Must say makes me feel very 'wanted' and I feel 'Almost Famous'.
And how do you all know that he's not worth it? How? I never ever once said so.
Anyway, now the fear of writing anything at all is so deep-rooted, with so many readers, I think I've got what they call 'writer's block'. Phew!!
But thanks again and my id ain't that hard to crack...lol!
At 10:17 PM ,
velvetgunther said...
14th comment...
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