Sneak Peek!

Been blogging for more than a year now - just an insipid, matter-of-fact statement and observation.

As insipid and matter-of-fact as my blogs.

As insipid, uninspired and boring as my life itself.

I wish I could get a sneak peek at Future and find out if life for me would always be insipid, matter-of-fact and extremely mundane and banal.

At least then I could resign myself to that fact. Accept it unconditionally. Because in acceptance sometimes lies release.

But then Fear raises its ugly many-horned head. Fear that Life will actually be insipid. Ugh! Now that would be the ultimate Moment of Truth. Fear that all Hope is lost. Fear that Life just is.

I wonder at which point in my life was I faced with Sliding Doors - I'd like to know if I have a parallel life and if there's another 'me' living in a parallel universe. If I was 'I' in that universe and had the same thought processes and fears and emotions and well, basically If I was me but facing different conundrums and solving them differently. If I was actually living in a parallel universe, I'd like to talk to me and share with me and listen to me. Why? Because I'm narcissistic? No, that'd be untrue (well partially) but, because it'd be interesting to get a sneak peek into 'me' and ascertain if I had an ally in myself. I'd have a friend in me, a soul mate, from whom I could gain succour (sucker! snicker, snicker!). A parallel universe seems like an interesting idea.

This is the umpteenth lousy blog that I've written and I think probably my worst. Forgive me. I think I'll go look for 'me'.