"How are you?" "I'm fine..."

I'm not fine. I wrote the blog. Published it. 'Cannot find server' is flashed. A rude joke? This is a mirthless, ruthless, heartless world. And no, I'm not fine.

I've not been fine for a while. What is wrong? I have not a clue.

I want to curl up and wake up with an angel singing softly to me, with a harp playing by my side, with little cherubs flitting past in pink tutus, and birds flocking to a musical birdbath and my Sai gently running his hand over my head where I know that I won't have to worry about being alone, troubled, bereft of love, understanding, ever.

I really need to sleep. A deep restful sleep. Dream blissful dreams.

"How are you?" "Need to be rescued." (But I'm not fine...am not fine at all).